Ok, is it wrong of me to feel so startled and somewhat angry at the Oscars? Is that wrong? I simply cannot believe that after ALL of the hubbub and whatnot about Brokeback Mountain, it DIDN'T win Best Picture?!?!?! I absolutely refuse to believe this. It's upsetting! It wasn't just a movie that was up for recognizance, it was so much more. I'm certainly not going to say that racial issues aren't important, but this was meant to be the year that gay rights, nay, simply homosexuality was to be recognized in the mainstream and celebrated. A win for Brokeback meant a win for gays everywhere; a means of saying "you can come out now, we see you and things are ok!". No one ever said as much, but it was implied implied implied. So to go and NOT have Brokeback Mountain win as Best Picture is like saying "Ok, we see you, and we know you're gay. That's cool and all, just don't be gay around me". What a backhanded compliment. Everything it was supposed to mean and everything it was supposed to signify just got tromped into the dirt under the heel of ignorance and closed-mindedness. I can't believe it. We're allowed to come to the family dinner, but we have to eat in the living room where no one else has to see us. FUCK!
I know that it was never meant to be a huge political/cultural statement piece, and that all of this significance ascribed to it is purely after the fact, but it just blows me away how it all blew up into something so much more meaningful. I truly thought that this would mean that being gay was FINALLY being accepted. And then it gets pulled away at the very last second. I'm quite upset! Does this mean that we really are no better off? That all of this perceived acceptance is false and transitory, and that in a little while we'll be right back to how things were, where even Hollywood won't be bothered to offer us their support? I am saddened...actually saddened about this. I thought this could be something so great and something so meaningful, and it wasn't. We're no better off...not really...